Guilt is a terrible sickness.

That’s what i learnt also learnt that i don’t look prettah when i cry >< As of 23/4/2010 i was (and still is) depressed. And being the pig that i am, i eat (more than usual) when i’m depressed. Haha, i just ate like what ermm…alot of noodles and stuff so i gained 1kg alr(!!!) Yeah, i shld seriously snap out of it. Anyways in case you wanna why im depressed here are the reasons-

1) I cut from lane 5 to lane 2 in the 4x300m race when i was not supposed to

2) i got disqualified

3) correction- my team got disqualified

4) i walked toward the finishing line with my hand over my mouth.

5) i saw my team mates expression and i just broke down.

6) cried for abt 10 mins

7) the strong one( crystal- who was not crying) told me that it was OK and i shldn’t cry.

8) i stopped crying

9) i saw kat and charisse crying

10) i wanted to cry again but my eyes just kinda welled up.

11) i walked to the carpark with crystal supporting me (i was wobbly from all the cry)

12) i sat at the carpark and wore my sports shoes while waiting for the other two to come.

13) other two+choi sun(that wonderful girl) came and sat down with me.

14) both mums of kat and charisse came down.

15) consoling consoling consoling

16) wow we’re alr at chap 16? (:

17) finally made my way upstairs to face the music

18) saw my coach smiling at me (disappointingly)

19) kinda relieved that he was not angry

20) went back to the stadium seats and saw sarah smirking.

21) pissed off, went to go with jane(the other awesome girl) and buy nuggets and snacks from the mama shop ( and drinks too)

22) felt alot better when boarding the bus

23) ignored “her” and went of to sit somewhere at the back of the bus

24) stuffed myself silly with food :X

25) Didn’t sing once throughout the whole bus ride back to schl (surprise, surprise.)

26) Alighted the bus and waited for mummy outside schl

27) mom came and wanted to know what happened

28) explained and mum gives lecture

29) tears


31) shower and then more tears


33) laughed my head off despite my miserable state

34) went home and crashed

35) woke up feeling tonnes better ;D

see? at least my day has a happy ending HAHA

yeah so i have 1 more race on wednesday…wish me luck OK? i need all the luck i can possibly get.

byeee for now,

pengiun depressed penguin


~ by tearingonions on April 24, 2010.

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